Wednesday, May 25, 2011

9 days post op :)

Well, my surgery was about 9 days ago and I'm feeling great :)

My surgery went well, they performed RNY Gastric Bypass, as well as removing my gallbladder and repairing a hiatal hernia :) 

My hospital stay was AH-MAY-ZING!  I had the best nursing staff EVER and I cannot even begin to explain their awesomeness.  I have to say between my surgeons and my nurses, I had the most pleasant post-op experience one could have.

I went in monday  night and came home thursday afternoon.

Its definitely a challenge getting in all the protein, but I'm managing with about 3 shakes a day which puts my protein intake about just about 70 which is right in the middle of where the drs want me to be.

I saw Dr.K yesterday for my first post op visit and since my surgery I'm down 14 lbs already :)

And I get to move on to my stage two (full liquids) diet... so I can add in farina and sugar free pudding to my daily intake :)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

My thank yous,my excitement.. my reasons for doing this.


just so everyone knows and is aware... and for all of you who are probably sick of seeing my status updates featuring a countdown.. SUCK IT.  i'm friggin stoked and i'm making sure EVERYONE on earth knows I am having my GASTRIC BYPASS SURGERY IN FIVE FREAKIN DAYS.

So thats my excitement part of the entry.

Next... my thank yous.  I already did a fb note and tagged everyone, but I also want to thank my blog followers and blog friends.  So I'm just copy and pasting what I had already wrote...

Thank you to all of my friends and family who have been so unbelievably supportive of me through my decisions and all my crap leading up to my gastric bypass, which will be taking place on May 16th.

All the outpourings of "congratulations", and "OMG I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU" and all things along those lines... mean the world to me.  I am on an online forum of people who have written posts  about how awful their friends have been and how they're family members have said hurtful things and almost wishing failure upon them.

Everyone has been so incredible and I am so grateful that I have all of you rooting for me and that you all realize I'm doing this for my health and well being.

I don't mean to get all sappy and shit but it really means a  lot to me and I'm so excited to have this surgery knowing I have an incredible support system that goes from new york to ohio to arizona and beyond. But I really can't express how much I really truly appreciate all the support and everything <3

... Now onto my reasons for doing this... 

I get a lot of this question... and last night at my first support group meeting.. I had to express why I wanted to do this. I have 5 top reasons... some are out of vanity, and some are petty...  so judge all you want.. but its the honest truth.

1- My career--- I want to be a nurse and eventually work with Doctors without Borders or the American Red Cross and travel the world and help those less fortunate. I cannot do that at 300 pounds.

2- I do not.... DO NOT DO NOT DO NOT... want to end up like my parents.  just plain and simple.  I don't want to struggle the rest of my life being fat. 

3- I'm sick of the fat.  I'm just sick of it.  Between having to shop at special stores... and buy more expensive clothes just because I'm fat.

4- I want a really sick tattoo on my side going from right under my tits to my mid thigh and have it wrap half way around my back... and I just can't do that fat.

5- I used to be friends with this one girl... she used to be one of my best friends... and she told my other best friend "If Katie was thin, I couldn't be friends with her because she'd be too pretty and compete with me for the guys"... So I really at this point, even though we're no longer friends (for different reasons, not related to my surgery... she's just a shithead) ... I really want to be able to give her a big FUCK YOU.


Tuesday, May 3, 2011

another months gone by... 12 days to go :)

So.  I'm really bad at this whole blogging thing apparently.   I don't mean to be... its just that.. well.. life gets in the way.  Don't get me wrong... things are amazing... better than they've been in a really long time... hence why I haven't blogged.  I've been out living my life and enjoying it and just having a freaking blast.

Well.. anyway... last I left off... I was heading to my surgeons to book my date and I was also totally worried about the self sabotage.  When I had gone there on the 12th, I had actually only gained like... 4pounds... not the 10 I thought.   I also booked my date.  May 16th :)  So it's about 12 days from now :)

I went back to the surgeon on the 26th, and I had lost 3 of those 4 pounds I gained and my surgeon was happy to see me back under 300.  Thats the main goal right now... to stay under 300.

I just went back on the 2nd for my 6th and final weigh in at my surgeons before they can submit everything to the insurance company. I'm at 296.  Exactly 50 lbs down from my highest weight in December 2010, which was 346 lbs. 

All thats left now is continuing with my liquid diet.... and waiting to hear from the insurance company.  I plan on calling every other day until I have an answer.  Okay.. maybe everyday.

So... a lot of people have been asking questions.. which I'm fine with, since I've decided to broadcast my surgery EVERYWHERE. lol. many of them are the same:
- Are you scared/nervous?
- Are you sure this is what you want?
- Are you ever going to be able to eat normal again?

To answer them:

No. I'm not scared yet.  I'm sure once I'm in the hospital, on the table.. about to be put under to have major abdominal surgery...  yes... i'll be scared and nervous for those 5 seconds.
I'm more nervous and scared about not doing this and not being able to live my life the way it should be lived.

I'm absitively, posolutely, 141092849085290385206776549% sure this is what I want. 

Yes. I will be able to eat normally again.  Not for the first few months.. maybe not even for the first year... and maybe I won't be able to eat certain foods ever again.  But .. I will be able to sit down and have a normal portion sized meal after this surgery.  At this point though.. my last concern is food.

I am so freaking excited about this!!!!!!!