Also, I had gone for my sono the other day, and he got the results. Everythings fine except I apparently have a giant gallstone . Its almost at 1.5cm. Which.. for a gallstone... is giant. So he said unless I have any pain I'm fine and they're taking out my gallbladder when I have my bypass surgery :) I'm totally okay with that since rapid weight loss can cause gallstones or cause the current gallstones to act up. Dr. K thinks I'm going to do great with the RNY. He says I have the initiative, the drive, the want, and all that for it. He said since I'm already showing I can handle the diets, and change my lifestyle he thinks I'll have smooth sailing. That'd be nice right?
I'm still crazy hormonal. Dr. K reassured me this is all completely normal, and my hormones will balance out... but it just takes time. Yeah. Time. ... Time better hurry its ass here soon because I just cried in the hallway when me, nicole and joanne were talking about finding nemo and how all the babies die in the beginning. I got all weepy and the tears started to flow. its really getting ridiculous.
So I had one of those moments today. One of those "OMG I'm actually going through with this... its really seriously happening" moments. Its more out of excitement then doubt. But then all of the... "will i" 's come into play...
- Will I like my new body?
- Will I still see the fat version of myself in the mirror?
- Will my friends still love me just the same?
- Will I change my personal style once I fit into "normal" clothes?
When this happens.. I bust out my pen and paper and make my pros and cons lists. But.. today.. instead of pros and cons... I added to my list of goals and things I want to do :
- Sky dive
- Take pole dancing classes
- Become an RN and work for american red cross or drs without borders
- have a BMI of 25 or less
- buy bras and undies at Vicky's
- Be able to shop EVERYWHERE instead of just 3 stores
- Bungee Jump
- Run a 5k
- Run a 10k
- Run a half-marathon
- Run a marathon
- Become certified in personal training
Till next time--